I know Most people, especially myself, like to keep their relationship problems to themselves. I feel this occasion to be different from the others.
Let me start off my explaining why I decided to call my lady, ‘My Lady’. I like to see myself as an honorable Knight, and what would a Gentlemanly Knight be without his lady? I found out this weekend that this Knight wouldn’t be a Knight without his Lady and Son.
After many problems of jealousy in our relationship, I will not disclose which one of us is the jealous type, my lady and I decided to take a few days apart. Day one, I spent most of that day with my son, a friend and his son. We took the kids to eat and play at a park. We really expected their energy to be drained from all the running, playing and sugar. By the time we got to my house, we expected the kids to fall asleep quickly. That was not the case at all. The kids stayed up for a couple more hours, but by bedtime, it was my sons own tears that put him to sleep. He didn’t want to sleep without his mom home in bed. Making it very difficult for me to get him to sleep, I tried comforting him and he fell asleep. He slept in the bed with me, but it still felt empty.
The next day, his mom picked him up early to take him to a park to feed the ducks. He was excited to go until he noticed I wasn’t going to join them. As they drove away, he cried begging me to go. It wasn’t easy to see. So I had the house to myself, which is very very rare. I watched tv, I smoked 2 cigarettes in the living room for the first time and I contemplated on going to the store for dog food. I decided to go to the store, but did not want to go alone, so I called my brother and 2 friends. To say the least, I ended up going alone. I got the necessities and after that, I wandered 2 more stores aimlessly. I went home after a couple of hours and fell asleep early. It wasn’t easy falling asleep in that big empty bed. Not only did I not have my son to sleep on my arm, but I didn’t have my lady either.
The next day I found out my son had the same trouble sleeping without me, while he was with his mom. It broke both of our hearts. It was reassuring to know the message from his dinner fortune cookie said, “Meaningful Relationships bring Meaning To Life.” When I read this, I felt like we were meant to be together. Not only did we both experience the miserable feeling of not having each other around for 2 days, but we also saw how it hurt the one we both knew we could not live without, our son. He is the peace between his mother and I. I don’t mean ‘piece’, I mean PEACE. He settled the differences between us with his tears and his love. We both know how much he means to us as individuals, but we know he means more to us as a FAMILY. I know for sure now that I would do anything to keep our little family together. I know my Lady feels the same and I know for sure our beautiful son will keep PEACE between us.
Thank you Elijah Paz M. for your love and everything you do to keep our family strong. I know its not easy for me to share my feelings with you, My Lady, but just know I can’t live without you. This Knight would be nothing without his Lady. Happy Valentine’s Day!